A Beautiful Garden

dont know why, today, i feel like everything is not right.
i just dont know why, i feel like everything is annoying

bete bgt deh. semalem gw sms ama Rudy, temen gw sms gini
" kamu kan bs mulai dr diri sendiri, sayangin diri kamu sendiri, jgn biarkan perasaan ga menentu nguasain kamu. Banyak orang yang butuh kasih sayang dari lo."
" bwt diri lo berharga dimata diri lo sendiri..Jangan pernah bangga ketika lo bisa dapatkan kehangatan dalam sekejap, karena itu blon tentu yang km cari..Gw berharap lo bisa temukan kasih sayang yang berharga dalam hidup lo.. Nite dik!.."

That's the question lingering in my mind recently.. Am i precious? Am i worth enough? Do I deserve to love and to be loved? it drives me to nothing, to a feeling of emptiness and envy to those who are really lucky to have someone, someone to share, someone that you know you will always be there once you need him or her.

Ok, maybe it sounds pathetic, but i believe, it is my karma. karma to let many people down in my past, deceiving, deluding, and beguiling...

so i am sorry for what i did, what i do, and what will i do...

Tapi, tetep aja, perasaan bete ini lama2 numpuk, numpuk, trus bikin gw ga ngerti apa2 lagi...huh..

or just simply a phrase
"I Hate Monday"...